Look on the bright side. Or, The happy, happy, joy, joy smoke up your ass people try and sell you and the sad reality of life.

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I gave this one a lot of thought.

I can't speak for anyone by myself. What I see and what I have experienced in my own life.

My life has been a roller coaster of highs and lows. I have been divorced twice. Some would see this as a terrible thing. For me it was a sweat release from very bad situations. When love turns to despair and hatred, it's time to put an end to it for the benefit of both.

Do I miss having the comfort of a woman next to me. Someone to hold when I wake up with a screaming nightmare. Yeah sometimes. However I would rather wake up to an empty bed and room than to someone telling me, ???It was just a bad dream. Go back to sleep??? Enough of that. We have all had good and bad times.

As of the time of writing this I am going through what I can honestly say is the worst.

It has been going on for a little over five years now. Forget the accident, four surgeries, the hip under recall, and all that just for a moment.

What hurts the most is the loss of just about everything. Running, playing in the sand or park. Backpacking, surfing or just walking without pain all the time, just to name a few.

If I did not have all that to cope with, I am bombarded with people trying to tell me to ???Look on the bright side??? I have to tell you it not that easy. Here are a few of the things I'm supposed to feel are the bright side. At least they haven't had to remove you foot yet. Yeah right. Or the ever popular, ???You're still alive.??? I sometimes ask if this is a good thing or not.

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So for those that want to live only on the bright side, I have a few more I can be grateful for.

I have to keep my house at 59 degrees. I can't afford to heat any higher than that. But look on the bright side it's better for the environment!

I eat ramen noddles for dinner at least twice a week because I can't afford more than that. But look on the bright side. Look how much weight I'm loosing!

I can't afford to own a car. Not even a crappy one. The list goes on and on. Thank whoever my 12 year old computer still works. The scope of my life has become so very small.

I don't go out, I don't date, can't afford that at all. I don't even have a Dr. I can see. Other than going to the local clinic. They do their best but lets be real.

I would ask people to walk a mile in my shoes. Then again I can almost not do that either.

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Look on the bright side? I try, but the constant reminder and happy smoke people are trying to continually force on me does not help.

Just understand when you bitch about the price of coffee at starbucks. I can't even afford to get there. Let alone buy their over priced coffee.

look on the bright side

Posted by admin on March 29, 2015